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Adding My Voice To Those Who Were Raped

11/6/2014

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Our society has a tendency to quantify pain. As a result, we end up in these futile discussions about how my pain is worse than your pain, or why what happened to you is far worse than what happened to me.  As a survivor of rape, I am all too familiar that the “default position” for many victims of rape is to say to yourself, “It wasn't that bad.  I can get through it on my own.”   When it comes right down to it, this is just the brain’s way of coping with a violent, traumatic act of violation. Can't we all simply agree that no one's pain is worse than anyone else's.  Rape is just that—It’s rape, and it's unconscionable.  

The Twitter hashtag campaign #BeenRapedNeverReported has become a global phenomenon.  It's allowing people to come forward and say, "This happened to me too."  For many people, it's their first tentative act of disclosing the trauma they survived.   
 

As I write this, I feel guilty in some weird way for entering into this debate that has been eye-opening for so many people, as it sheds light on how many female victims of sexual assault are amongst us.  As a man, and as a survivor of rape myself, I worry that adding my voice to this might in some way usurp or direct the conversation away from highlighting the abuse of women in our society.  But part of me thinks that this shouldn't be a debate about men or women, but rather, it should be about creating a culture in which stepping forward and disclosing sexual assault becomes a much more supportive and empowering experience.  

I am also aware that I have benefited from a lot of resources that many victims of rape don't have at their disposal.  I have been in a loving and supportive long-term relationship; one in which my wife has been able to hold the pieces together for me when my life was falling apart as a direct result of the ramifications of sexual assault.  I have battled issues with drug and alcohol addiction for years.  My mental health was so tenuous at times that suicide became a stark reality.  I stand here today feeling empowered—feeling that the sexual assault, which has indeed shaped me, does not define me.  I am also aware that I live in a privileged society; one in which this type of public disclosure, although never easy, is still possible.  There are many victims of sexual assault who live in societies in which a disclosure can mean certain death, forced exile, or a devastatingly isolated fractured life.  There are those too, who live in societies in which a sexual assault often entails exposure to deadly sexually transmitted disease.  

The real question here is now that we are having this discussion—now that many survivors of rape and sexual assault are coming forward with their stories, what are we going to do with it, and more importantly, what the hell are we going to do about it?  

I pray that if anything comes from this #BeenRapedNeverReported campaign, this global discussion, the one thing that I'd like to see materialize is that we, as a community, embrace each individual who has the courage to come forward with her or his disclosure. These people, these survivors, need to be received as our heroes.  For every individual who has the strength and the faith to publicly open up about what has happened—this one individual can be the beacon to pull two, three, four...hundreds of other people out of their darkness. If we really want to live in a society free of sexual violence, we need to create an environment in which survivors of sexual assault feel empowered, liberated, supported, and encouraged to let go of feelings of shame that are not of their volition.  This is what I pray for.  This is what needs to come of this discussion. 


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Kathleen Fillmore
11/6/2014 01:26:04 am

Thank you for adding your voice......K.

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Matthew Sandusky link
11/6/2014 02:45:08 am

JP-

I want to thank you for not only finding your voice but for using it in such an empowering way. You are one of those that are empowering others to find their voice and to step out of the darkness. We will keep working until every survivor is treated with love and respect. I stand with you JP. Thank you for being a light.

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Michael Smith
11/6/2014 08:07:09 am

JP you are an inspiration to me and many other survivours. You inspire me to do more as an advocate for those that have not found their voice yet. One day rape will be about the act and not about gender. Namaste

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Kat Alexander link
11/6/2014 11:22:49 am

Powerful, brave writing. Thank you.

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Alex Rettie
11/6/2014 02:22:05 pm

Thank-you, JP. It means so much to me to know, not that I'm not alone with this (I know I'm not), but that someone is brave enough to write about it, and that I can be that brave too.

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Lost Wolf
11/10/2014 10:59:12 pm

Thank you SO much for speaking up. I have tried to re-tweet as many of the men who have spoken up as I can, because I really strongly feel that this issue is NOT gender specific... my own cousin (6' 8", male, soldier), has been through this hell twice. And while I think the tag has the potential to be VERY good for healing and VERY good for moving people on this issue, I think the men and boys and LGBT community are getting lost in the shuffle on this, and that is wrong, because it affects EVERYONE, not JUST women and girls.

It should be an issue that we UNIFY on, NOT split down the middle because of what bits and pieces we each were born with. This is not gender-specific. Sexual assault and rape are violent crimes, and they are committed on people of all ages, genders, size, etc.

So. Again. Thank you so much for speaking up. My cousin asked me to make one small tweet for him, which I did, but because of his occupation, he did not want to take the risk of tweeting himself. You, him, and others - I really wish more of you folks WOULD add your voices to the tag.

People need to understand that this issue crosses ALL gender and race and age lines! I've spent a life time living this way, and there's no excuse for that. My cousin went through it twice, and he STILL deals with the demons from it. My daughter has been through this once. Several of my male friends - ironically, the ONLY ones who actually BELIEVED ME when I disclosed, and I only found out why later - have been through this.

Enough is ENOUGH. Thank you for speaking up. Thank you for adding your voice. Keep shouting it, keep saying it, keep speaking up!

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11/17/2014 10:43:27 am

After 10 years I'm finally dealing with what happened to me. It's wonderful to see many other people encouraging survivors to speak and stop feeling so ashamed. It is important as you said that we talk about our traumas to get it out of our system as it can lead to many things such as addictions, low self steem, depression.

Thank you for speaking up.

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Kara Kitchen link
11/24/2020 10:22:38 pm

Thank you for writing thiss

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