Breathe Through This
  • Recent Posts
  • Meet the Author
  • Reflect

Rewriting the father-son relationship

6/5/2014

 
Picture
Like many men of his generation, my father was an enigma when it came to deciphering  the nuances of his moods.  He appeared to vacillate between being a practical joker and a moody depressive.  I can remember the frustration I felt as child trying to figure out why my father was in a bad mood, and more importantly, whether or not I was to blame.  Having a relationship with my dad was like going on a archaeological dig—It took a lot of time and patience to unearth what you were looking for.

Now that I am the father of a young man, I see that I too an guilty of slipping on that skin of enigma that my father so steadfastly wore.  The difference being, that I desperately want to cultivate an authentic relationship with my son, something I never achieved with my father.  There is no denying that we are a product of our childhood, but I don't believe this fact relegates us to a carbon-copy life replicating that which was imprinted on us during our childhood.  The definition of insanity is “doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result”, so if I’m eager for change to happen, conscious action will be required on my part to break this stagnant perennial father-son relationship.  

Whenever we want to witness real change in our life, and I’m not talking here about “tweaking” or “tinkering” with breaking habits, we have to adopt the mentality that change does not come to us, but rather, we come to change.  An awareness that a change is necessary is a critical first step, but it’s just that—a step, not a destination.

This past year has been transformation for me because it has been a period of intense introspection precipitating drastic changes in my life.  As I step back and observe this process, I can note the few occasions in which I was able to bring about a significant change with the least amount of friction and the greatest possibility for success.  The desire for a change typically comes from a place of inferiority—often enmeshed in shame or perceived inequality.  I have found it helpful to put some positive thoughts, or self-talk, into my “emotional bank” before embarking on the process of bringing about a change in some facet of my life.  The easiest way for me to approach change from a place of strength and confidence is to ask myself a couple of self-affirming questions.  If you’re anything like me, you might find it helpful to write your answers down on a piece of paper.  There’s some alchemy that occurs when we physically write something, as it allows us to internalize that which we write.  Here are the questions I asked myself and the answers I recorded.

  • What is your greatest strength—in other words—Why wouldn’t you be “voted off the island”?     I have a great sense of humour which allows me to defuse even the tensest of situations.

  • What is your greatest accomplishment?   I have been able to stay clean and sober for over 17 years.  I am stronger than I give myself credit for.

  • When it comes to making this change, what is your greatest FEAR—and by this I mean the acronym, “False Evidence Appearing Real”?    I am afraid that the type of “authentic” relationship I want to build with my son will somehow subvert the societal norm of a parent-child relationship, one in which a parent should not appear vulnerable.  The truth is that for me to cultivate the change I am seeking, vulnerability will be not only the catalyst but also the new “norm”.

It’s also important to note that any meaningful change in life comes with an inherent cost—You are bound to meet resistance or friction in others who feel uncomfortable with your metamorphosis.  Sadly, I’ve had to do a little people purging in my social circle, thereby surrounding myself with those who embrace my efforts and distancing myself from the naysayers.  We often sabotage any hope of change before we even begin because we allow all that negative self-talk to take over our consciousness.  If we are serious about making a change in our lives, the opportunity is always there for us to seize.  In the words of Henry Ford, “Whether you believe you can do or not, you are right.”

Stephen
6/5/2014 11:03:24 pm

Great post JP. As the father of an almost 13 year old boy, I've struggled with this over the past couple of years and you've really capsulized it nicely. Lately our relationship hasn't been great but I am always quick to say "sorry" and own up to my shortcomings with him or at least try to explain to him why I am on him. They grow up so fast as you know. Thanks!


Comments are closed.

    Archives

    January 2019
    December 2018
    August 2018
    January 2018
    December 2017
    July 2017
    April 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    November 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    November 2015
    October 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    March 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013

    RSS Feed

email the author:  runjprun@gmail.com
Photo used under Creative Commons from (vincent desjardins)
  • Recent Posts
  • Meet the Author
  • Reflect